life's seriously fucked up. again and again, it fucks you harder and harder.

i'm getting sick of it, the shit piling up, when you're getting a bigger pile and a smaller shovel. sucks, doesn't it. yes it does SUCK.

well. i'm not happy with the life i'm having right now. i need someone to cheer me up. well only someone, can do it. forget it, she'll never realise it. sorry for the complaints, eventhough no one's looking at my shit. good night. hope i can realise what the fuck i've wrote and well, regret it, later. good night. i'm drunk, yes i am, all the time.

i pretended.. i'm glad you went away...

why didn't i say.. the things i needed to say..

how could i let my angel get away..

the nights are lonely the days are so sad..

im missing u.. nobody knows it but me..

i carry a smile when i'm broken in two..

i'm nobody without someone like u..

i lie awake.. it's a quarter paste three..

i'm screaming the night if i thought if you'd hear me..

my heart is calling u.. how blue can i get ?

you could ask my heart.. when life like a jigsaw puzzle torn all apart..

- i'm playing a fool's game right now.. not going to quit it though. i'm going to wait. like a clown painting a smiley face-

Okay. I was at this drinking spree last week and out of 4 i got drunk once. Only 2 people but was each of us was like popping around 10 shots of Tequila Pops, 4 Flaming Lambourgini's and we finished 2 bottles of whiskey, Chivas and Black Label. I got to admit that I was in a drinking mood that day. Heh. Ended up sleeping at the sofa in Cafe Flam - For Love and more.. for like an hour at 2am. That was Wednesday. On Fri, Sat and Sun was more to the chilling part. Just danced and sipping the drinks not that slow. Ordered a few shots too. But the noons were like shit. Having headaches, hangovers due to overdosage of alcohol. Am writing cause too bored, have to wait another hour for friend to finish his class. Now at the lab in college.. Will write when i have time. Till then